Bad Mommy?

am i a bad mommy to my baby?

first, she was on fever..yup i have to deal with her cranky-ness

doc said cuz of her growing teeth

fever + flu = MADNESS

she dont feel good, she cries

she cant sleep, she cries

ive become a zombie for a few days -.-'

then she got nappy rashes. bought her to clinic. doc said its fine. but after 2days, gotten worst. went to the doc again. she said, wrong prescribed cream. now she's fine.

then,

colic! yup!

because of me! i ate soooo many things without thinking that im still breastfeeding her.

she cried for hours last night. and i got stressed out, and depressed. but im lucky that Ibu was here to help. Alhamdulillah, i got thru it.

Ibu dont really say that i was my fault because she doesnt want me to get more stressed out and depressed. but i know, it is my fault.

now, her bums got rashes. due to diarrhea!

yup, still. blame me!

i am the culprit! haiyaaaaa!

i am seriously a bad mommy! i dont think of her. i ate whatever i want then she is the one who suffers. i am sorry, Ayra. Mommy is a bad mother to you :(

i really really madly and deeply feel bad about this. she cries everytime i try to change her diaper. and i feel like crying too! Mommy soooo soorrrryyyyy Ayra! Mommy promise to watch for what i eat from now on.